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That feeling when you want to share something but no one's there to listen. It's a terrible feeling. I just felt it right now. This is one of the days when I get emotionally down and all the shit that happened in the past months comes back to memories.

I wish memories are just text files in the computer that I could easily delete from the hard disk. When you feel that it's not anymore needed, all you need to do is highlight file, press delete, go to the recycle bin, then empty recycle bin. I just wish that's how simple it is. But it's not. Just when you thought you have completely moved on, everything flashes back.

I guess, I haven't really moved on. Probably I still love her. Perhaps, I was just convincing myself that I have moved on. I don't know. What I know is, I have to go through this. So I don't have to look back someday. And I need a clean reinstall of my operating system.